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[10 Dec 2007|11:09pm] |
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im devastated.
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[21 Oct 2007|01:06pm] |
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i hope that fucking bong swat was worth never seeing my face again, i hope that bong swat was worth hurting me in a way that i have never been so hurt and betrayed before, and i hope that fucking bong swat was worth invalidating your word and turning it into jack shit. i hope you have a good time on tour because im not going to be hearing about it. basically i really, truly hope weed is that important, and one day i hope to understand how a plant can be more important than me.
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[18 Oct 2007|11:42pm] |
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Fucking A.
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[11 Oct 2007|12:04pm] |
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okay. this is really awesome. seriously, real cool.
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[06 Aug 2007|12:29am] |
how about this song absolutely kills me.
How does it feel to know you're everything I need
The butterflies in my stomach
They could bring me to my knees
How does it feel to know you're everything I want
I've got a hard time saying this
So I'll sing it in a song
Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one
How does it feel
How does it feel when we get locked into a stare?
Please don't come looking for me
When I get lost in the mess of your hair
How do you feel when everything you've known
Gets thrown aside
Never fear, my dear, 'cause we have nothing left to hide
Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I'm right next to you
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I won't let you down
Well, I'm ready
Well, I'm ready
I am ready
To run away with you
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
To run away with me
Pack your things we can leave today
Pack your things we can leave today
Say our goodbyes and get on the train
Say goodbye
Just you and I in the sweet unknown
We can just call each other our home
If I had to choose a way to die
It'd be with you
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your face
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your cherub face
How does it feel?
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[27 Jan 2007|12:51am] |
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i hate this. i hate this. i hate this. i hate this. i. hate. this. i hate saying what i'm thinking. i hate letting people in. i hate scaring people away. i hate fucking up. i HATE THIS. i hate thinking. too much. about nothing. i hate pessimism. i hate me.
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[20 Dec 2006|01:28pm] |
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i am so fucking stoked right now. so stoked i'm crying. seriously. suck my dick.
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[03 Dec 2006|07:44pm] |
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Let's do everything for the first time forever.
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[21 Nov 2006|11:40pm] |
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ucf acceptance today. stoked.
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[19 Sep 2006|12:36am] |
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so i came down here because i had so much to say but now i forget. since the hysterics are over now, i'm just kindof numb. and i don't really know what just happened, except that i haven't felt this pain in over 2 years. i know that i fucked up and made mistakes, but you went and got even anyway. i apologized and tried to fix things, you just pretended that they were okay. everyone thinks that i'm the bad guy, but they werent there all of those times i sat and waited for phone calls that never came, listened to one bullshit lie after another, coming out of some stranger's mouth. i'm not the type to sit around and beg, although i'm thinking about it. i just don't understand what happened in a matter of two days that can change someone's mind like that, unless i'm completely oblivious and it's been unfolding in front of me, and i'm beginning to think that's the case. either way, i dont think thats fair. it's one thing to hurt someone, but it's another thing to continually hurt someone over and over again over an extended period of time. the thing that hurts me the most, is you promised that you would never treat me like him, and thats what you've been doing all along. the person i met before isnt the same person that just completely tore me apart without even caring or even bothering to do it in person. or maybe it is and i was just blind before. all i know is that you were the one person that made everything seem worth while, the one person that when i was so stressed out about school and everything going on in my life, i would think about you and smile because i knew that you were great and would always be there for me, and that i didnt have to put up some front and pretend to be someone i'm not, because i've never needed to do that. saying i jump from guy to guy is bullshit, because this passed the record and i had every intention on setting a new one that exceeded all the other ones put together. you were the one thing i looked forward to no matter what, the person that made everything okay because whenever something went wrong i would just think about how you were there. so thankyou for that, for making me believe again that there are people out there who will be there, but i guess that they'll never be around forever. and i dont think that i'm being too emotional, becuase i know it wasnt for a long time, but i dont think anyone knows the impact that it made. either way, thanks in advance for the hangover i'm going to have at 6 30 tomorrow morning on the way to school.
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[07 Sep 2006|10:07pm] |
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sometimes i just feel like crying. and sometimes i just feel like giving up. i miss that person i met over the summer, i dont think he's ever coming back, maybe i should let it go. some things you just can't fix.
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[30 Aug 2006|08:39pm] |
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sitting in the oral surgeon's chair crying cause he's sticking me with needles and then crying even harder cause you said you'd be there with me.
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[27 Aug 2006|05:42pm] |
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everyone is full of bullshit. no one is capable of not being a shady motherfucker no matter how nice you are or may be. i'm sick of everyone and i'm gonna do what i meant to do when school started, quit hanging out with shitty people and only surround myself with positive people who dont bring any negativity or fighting and bullshit lying into my life.
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[17 Aug 2006|08:38pm] |
Cheers darlin'
Here's to you and your lover boy
Cheers darlin'
I got years to wait around for you
Cheers darlin'
I've got your wedding bells in my ear
Cheers darlin'
You give me three cigarettes
To smoke my tears away
And I die when you mention his name
And I lied, I should have kissed you
When we were running in the rain
What am I, darlin'?
A whisper in your ear?
A piece of your cake?
What am I, darlin?
The boy you can fear?
Or your biggest mistake?
Cheers darlin'
Here's to you and your lover man
Cheers darlin'
I just hang around and eat from a can
Cheers darlin'
I got a ribbon of green on my guitar
Cheers darlin'
I got a beauty queen
To sit not very far from here
I die when he comes around
To take you home
I'm too shy, I should have kissed you
When we were alone
What am I, darlin'?
A whisper in your ear?
A piece of your cake?
What am I, darlin?
The boy you can fear?
Or your biggest mistake?
What am I?
What am I, darlin'?
I got years to wait around for you
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[09 Aug 2006|10:21pm] |
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i dont think anyone (except maybe darcy) understands the magnitude of how upsetting it is to me when someone doesn't call back when they say they're going to. she was there with me when everything happened and i think she's the only person who understands why it still bothers me so much.
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[20 Jul 2006|04:41pm] |
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despite everything thats happened i am so happy right now. it feels good to finally meet someone worth my while. i havent met a genuine person in the longest time, i was beginning to think they were becoming extinct
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[14 Jan 2006|06:15pm] |
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Girl Got a whip
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[31 Dec 2005|02:56am] |
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someone put some cool shit for me to look at on here :]
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[07 Dec 2005|09:44pm] |
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lately it seems like everyone is just moving on to better things. whether it's new people or old people just more involved it all feels the same. even my best of friends arent really anymore. i feel like everything is forced. i really dont understand, but it hurts so much. i dont understand...i just feel so unwanted, and i dont know what changed. it's not that there isnt enough time, time can always be made. maybe i should just move on too, and forget about my expectations because they'll never be met. no more trying, because i'm the only one and nothing ever comes of it. it's been fun, love, but i wont try and hold you back anymore. i dont even know what i'm trying to say. have fun with your new friends, i guess i'll find some of my own
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[27 Nov 2005|10:05pm] |
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thanksgiving break was so much fun...can't wait for christmas <3
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